Thursday, December 27, 2012

How I Feel About Five

Its true.

Lord willing, we'll be meeting another little Clark in early August.

I feel...

Joyful,

Inadequate,

Privileged,

Unable &

Honored 

that He might entrust us with five.

I feel in love all over again with my Cowboy, babies can do that to a woman you know. 

Whenever God places life within me I get overwhelmed by the sweetness of His gift of intimacy that He's given to my Joey and me. 

I just love that man of mine!

And when we found out about this little one, my Cowboy encouraged me all the more that the Lord has awesome things up His sleeve for us. 

Is it gonna be easy? Probably not.

Are they all gonna have college funds, and their own bedrooms, and a shiny new car when they turn 16? 

No.

But they will grow up in a home where there's an endless supply of love and grace. They'll grow up with ample opportunity to learn to think about others above themselves. They'll grow up practicing forgiveness and self-control. They'll be bathed in His Word and covered in their Mama & Papa's prayers.

How do I feel about five?

I'm gonna go with Mrs. E Prentiss on this one...

"Some say I shall now have one mouth the more to fill and two feet the more to shoe, more disturbed nights, more laborious days, and less leisure or visiting, reading, music, and drawing. 

Well. This is one side of the story, to be sure, but I look at the other.

Here is a sweet, fragrant mouth to kiss; here are two more feet to make music their pattering about my home.

Here is a soul to train for God; and the body in which it dwells is worthy all it will cost, since it is the abode of a kingly tenant.

I may see less of friends, but I have gained one dearer than them all, to whom, while I minister in Christ's name, I make a willing sacrifice of what little leisure for my own recreation my other (treasures) had left me. 

Yes, my precious baby, you are welcome to your mother's heart, welcome to her time, her strength, her health, her tenderest cares, to her lifelong prayers! Oh, how rich I am, how truly, truly blessed!!" 

I've been thinking about my Jesus and His up-side-down kingdom. He once said,"that the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life as a ransom for many." 

So like she said, "This baby is welcome to my heart, welcome to my time, my strength, my health, my tenderest cares, and my lifelong prayers." 

That's how I feel about #5. :)