Thursday, October 28, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
"But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light..." She read from The Word. She continued, "This is what He thinks of you... this is what He calls you. Let it sink in, and believe it."
Why is it that ten years later, some things about my heart are still exactly the same? Why do I allow my mind to choose to focus on my sin, rather than on the freedom that the Lord wants to offer me? Ten years later, the questions still remain...
I often wonder...
How is it that He sees me white as snow? How is it that he can freely forgive someone with a heart like mine? How is it that HE, the King of Kings, the most perfect, flawless, heavenly Father, The creator of all things, the Beginning and the End, the Most High... wants to call me, Kacy Nicole Clark, His daughter? Who am I that He would know my name, better yet call me His Very Own?
You would think that after all these years of being a christian, I would have grasped it. You would think that I would know that YES, I am a Royal Priesthood, I BELONG to God Himself.
The truth is that I still don't get it...
The truth is that more often than not I still don't believe it...
The truth is that it is really hard for me to believe things that I don't fully understand.
But above all my doubts stand firm MUCH greater truths.
The truth is... that no matter how much I lack understanding, if He declares it, then plain and simple, it is true. HE CALLS ME HIS OWN, therefore, I AM His own. He declares me righteous, therefore, I am righteous in His sight. He calls me his daughter, therefore, that is exactly what I am.
On the night of our wedding my Joey did something amazing. To this day it has been a tangible reminder to me of the tender, patient way that the Lord cherishes his daughters and loves on them with nothing less than an extravagant sort of love...
On the night of our wedding I came out the bathroom in hysterics. I was freaked out to say the least. Joey was my first everything... first boyfriend, first kiss, first..well, you get the picture. As I tried to explain to my Joey through my chopped up words why I was such a basket case, He sat me down on the bed and did something totally unexpected. He put his hands on each side of my head, then leaned in and gave me a kiss on each of my eyes. He thanked the Lord for my eyes and for how He had made my them just for my Joey. He moved onto my lips, then my ears. From the top of my head to the tip of my toes, He graciously, gently and genuinely thanked the Lord for each and every part. He thanked the Lord for the great gift that He had given him in allowing me to be his bride. He thanked the Lord for the life that we were going to live together, for the good, the bad, the joy, the sadness, the pretty and the ugly! In that single hour I not only felt loved, I knew love. And not a superficial, fleeting love, but instead a deep-intimate life long sort of love. Through his prayers, I knew that my Joey was choosing me. He didn't have to commit to loving me for forever, but he chose to do so.
In our ten years of marriage, I will admit that I have not always felt in love, but I am certain that no matter what circumstances may come our way, both Joey and I will always choose love, despite what we may or may not feel.
And so it is the same with my Jesus... I may not always feel that what He says is true, BUT
Monday, October 25, 2010
that all believers would be filled with
that comes from a pure heart,
a clear conscience,
and a genuine faith.”
~1 Tim. 1:5
Lord, there it is: the point of my instruction in this home.
And Love can only come from
Will You instruct me on how to instruct them in what the purpose of this living really is:
to be filled with Christ-love.
So we might be known as Your disciples.
Another week is starting... Oh how I need your strength Lord!!