" We regret to inform you that the pictures you requested are no longer in your file."
Joey was standing with me in the kitchen... My head fell onto his chest and the tears couldn't help but fall out of my eyes... He gently said, "you got your hopes up, huh?" Then he just held me... "The Lord knows the reason why we didn't need to see those pictures," he said.
I was just quiet...
Internally I was wondering how much more my heart could be broken.
I knew that this was a possibility and I have no regrets in sending in the paper work... I have no doubt that taking that step was all part of the journey that the Lord seems to be taking me on right now...
Then I woke up this morning to an email that a dear friend had sent sometime in the night... It was filled with God's Word... It was all about rest... It was water to my soul...
"Let the beloved of the LORD rest secure in him,
for he shields him all day long,
and the one the LORD loves rests between his shoulders." Deut. 33:12
This is what the Sovereign LORD, the Holy One of Israel, says:
"In repentance and rest is your salvation,
in quietness and trust is your strength.
The LORD is gracious and righteous;
our God is full of compassion.
The LORD protects the simplehearted;
when I was in great need, he saved me.
Be at rest once more, O my soul,
for the LORD has been good to you.
Hide out in your closet, close the bathroom door... Where ever you can go to just be still for a few short moments... For IN QUIETNESS AND TRUST IS OUR STRENGTH!!!
I wanted nothing more than to post some pictures of our beautiful boys. When we were sitting on the couch last night talking about the pictures, Joey said they probably look just like a "Clark Kid."
So here they are ... The Clark Kids... FULL of personality and life!!!
Thankful for a place to rest through this time of heartache...
Signing off for now... :)